February 04, 2014 one of the most traumatic events of my life occurred, I was robbed and raped. I don’t write a lot on my blog about my personal life, but this does not escape my memory. I remember that day well. Everything changed. Those of you that have been following me know that I am an invalid and this was unimaginable when I woke up at 4:30 AM to a knife in my side and a man on top of me with his other hand over my mouth. His first words were, “I’m going to kill you.” Calmly I replied, “Kill me.” He kept repeating this because I believe he wanted a scared reaction instead of my calm attitude and I kept answering him the same. Kill me.
I could see that he had been in my room for quite some time as every cabinet and closet was opened. He had to be extremely quiet because I sleep lightly. I also could feel that he had taken my father’s wedding ring which was on a necklace around my neck. I knew I would never get it back and it was the only thing I had left of my father’s. I really was not afraid of dying. I was concerned about being cut up and permanently damaged.
Keeping my calm demeanor serenely I began praying out loud. This really aggravated him and he stuffed a scarf down my throat, but I continued to pray. At a time like that you realize the only help you can get will be from The Divine! He did what he wanted to do and left quickly because I could see that somehow he had become afraid. I believe it was because of all of the divine entities that came into my room at that time. I kept praying until I was positive he was gone.
At that point I called Rene, my son from another mother. He was here within ten minutes and I cannot begin to say how happy I was to see him. He held me as I cried. That was what I needed in that moment.
Anyone who has been through a robbery/rape can relate to what I’m saying. Yes, I have healed in many ways, but I will always remember this incident. Thanks to a donation I was able to install a metal security door on my bedroom, so now it would be close to impossible to get into my room at night. Because of that security door I’m able to sleep without great concern.
For anyone who goes through an attack like this remain calm and pray because you will find help from beyond. I do not claim to be an expert on rape victims, but I know what worked for me.
I am a survivor of rape. It isn’t anyone’s job or right to call it legitimate or otherwise. I am standing up for all rape survivors. I’m One!
The bottom line to remember is: “You live, You win.”
Many blessings to all of you survivors,